Diary of A Chaotic Dreamer


This blog is a mix of everyday randomness, impulsive thoughts, and the occasional deep reflection I wasn’t emotionally prepared for. There’s no structure here—just vibes, caffeine, and a lot of overthinking. If you’re into messy but entertaining storytelling, welcome aboard!

  • 2024. At this point, I had fully accepted my reality: I am an unhinged fangirl. I commit too easily—to good music, fandom antics, and, most dangerously, live concerts. So when YOASOBI, the literal soundtrack of my life, announced their 2025 Jakarta concert in February… My brain short-circuited. I had to go. No debate. No hesitation. Instant life priority. Especially because I was still emotionally scarred from January 2024—when they came to Jakarta and I got completely sold outed. I still went to the venue, desperately hoping to somehow get a ticket. But even scalpers were asking me if I had…

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  • Saki never thought she’d play again. Not after everything that happened. But life has a way of pulling people back into the things they love—and the people they never expected to need. Between unspoken words, late-night walks, and music that refuses to be forgotten, Saki, Kyou, and Yuuto find themselves at a crossroads. Dreams, love, and the weight of the past collide in a story about the things left unsaid—and the ones that matter most. Disclaimer: The ideas, characters, plot, sequencing, and scenes in this story are entirely my own creations. However, my bestie, ChatGPT, helped refine the wording and paraphrasing,…

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  • Keiko thought friendships were constants—until unspoken feelings shattered that illusion. Caught between Tarou, her ever-present anchor; Kyo, the steady pragmatist unraveling before her eyes; and Ryou, the one who never asked for anything yet lingers in her heart, she faces an impossible choice. As confessions surface and emotions tangle, Keiko must decide: follow love, risk everything, or finally choose herself. Disclaimer: The ideas, characters, plots, sequencing, and scenes in this story are entirely my own creations. However, my bestie, ChatGPT, assisted in refining and paraphrasing the wording, also in generating illustration for the featured image. This narrative draws inspiration from the…

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  • Hey everyone!I finally have some time to write again and update this blog… with an old story. This is yet another chapter in my unhinged obsession with ONE OK ROCK—this time, it even took me to another country. If possible, let’s all embrace the “we read and we don’t judge” mentality here, because, well… I may have made some questionable decisions along the way. December 18, 2023 I rolled out of bed at an ungodly hour, fueled by sheer excitement (and the looming threat of missing my flight) of seeing One Ok Rock. Again.  By 4:30 AM, I was at…

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  • Saki never planned to return to the stage, but one reckless yes changed everything. Music pulls her back in, but so do the ghosts of the past. As unspoken tensions rise, she’s forced to choose between who she was and who she wants to be. And when she finally plays—not for the past, not for anyone else, but for herself—Kyou can’t look away. Disclaimer: The ideas, characters, plot, sequencing, and scenes in this story are entirely my own creations. However, my bestie, ChatGPT, helped refine the wording and paraphrasing, as well as generate the illustration for the featured image. This narrative…

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  • Keiko wasn’t looking for Ryou, but fate—or something crueler—kept throwing him in her path. What started as fleeting encounters became something impossible to ignore, a slow unraveling of guarded words and quiet moments. Now, caught between past and present, fleeting and constant, she must face the truth—some hearts are never meant to belong to just one person. Disclaimer: The ideas, characters, plots, sequencing, and scenes in this story are entirely my own creations. However, my bestie, ChatGPT, assisted in refining and paraphrasing the wording, also in generating illustration for the featured image. This narrative draws inspiration from the song “Gravity” by…

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  • As Saki drifts back into music, Yuuto’s persistence and Kyou’s quiet support push her toward a past she’s avoided. A familiar face threatens to pull her under, but Yuuto and Kyou won’t let her disappear. In grief, friendship, and rediscovered passion, Saki faces the question she’s long ignored: What happens when you stop running? Disclaimer: The ideas, characters, plot, sequencing, and scenes in this story are entirely my own creations. However, my bestie, ChatGPT, helped refine the wording and paraphrasing, as well as generate the illustration for the featured image. This narrative is inspired by the song “Subtitle” by Official…

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  • Some people fade like background noise; others linger like an offbeat melody. Saki, Kyou, and Yuuto weren’t supposed to meet—let alone keep crossing paths. But between late-night conversations and unshakable pasts, they found themselves caught in a rhythm neither planned for. Not quite friends, not quite strangers—just three lives unexpectedly in sync. Disclaimer: The ideas, characters, plots, sequencing, and scenes in this story are entirely my own creations. However, my bestie, ChatGPT, assisted in refining and paraphrasing the wording, also in generating illustration for the featured image. This narrative draws inspiration from the song “Subtitle” by Official HIGE DANDism. Chapter 1:…

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  • Keiko never believed in fate—until she kept running into the same stranger. Once was chance. Twice was coincidence. But now, she can’t shake the feeling that their story is just beginning—even if it’s one she shouldn’t be writing. Disclaimer: The ideas, characters, plots, sequencing, and scenes in this story are entirely my own creations. However, my trusty companion, ChatGPT, assisted in refining and paraphrasing the wording, also in generating illustration for the featured image. This narrative draws inspiration from the song “Gravity” by One Ok Rock feat. Satoshi from Official HIGE DANDism. Chapter 1: Coffee, Rain, and the Unfinished Night The…

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  • So, this is a continuation of my previous story about how One Ok Rock completely ruined me (in the best way possible). If you haven’t read part one, you can find it [here]. But today, we’re diving into what happened after that 2023 fateful concert—aka the moment my life choices took a dramatic, fangirl-fueled turn. Let’s just say, if I thought I was obsessed with One Ok Rock before the second concert, I had grossly underestimated myself. Because what came next? That was next-level devotion. Suddenly, they were the only thing I listened to. Everywhere. At home, at work, while…

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